Today marks two weeks since my surgery and physically I'm wonderful! Most of the swelling has gone down and my scar is barely noticeable. It pretty much looks like a scratch at this point.
I am, however, experiencing some mental/emotional side effects from the surgery, new medication, etc. Oddly enough I often find myself feeling around on my neck, though, searching for the mass. I guess I'd gotten so used to feeling for it throughout the day that it's strange to not feel it there anymore. I'm also having some wild mood swings and depression. I'm not sure if it's because I was immediately thrown into hypothyroidism, anxiety over my upcoming treatments, or if I've just always been this way (mom & dad, no smart responses)!I sit and wonder if the crazy tantrums I had during wedding planning could have partially been attributed to having a whack-o thyroid or if they were just bridezilla moments. I guess I spend too much time thinking?
I don't know how people dealt with issues back before the days of the internet and social media. It must've been so much harder! I have found such comfort and solace by the fellow thyroid cancer fighters I've found via blogs, Twitter, even Pinterest. It's like having a support group without awkwardly sitting around in a circle exchanging pleasantries.
Mr. K and I are working on formulating our new lifestyle including a very limited meat diet, since much of my cancer fighting research points to plant based diets. Stay tuned for a post on that in the next week.
Sheila, hang in there bud! I know it has to be really hard not knowing what the heck is going on with your feelings and emotions. You are entitled to some wackiness! Just know that you have people here for you ready to listen to any crazy rants you have and we will still love you!
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